Time for a blog-worthy update.
I miss people so much. Distance, by roads, is the hardest thing to deal with. Why? Because I thrive off of my relationships with my dearest friends. They make me who I am. Parts of me are them and parts of them make up me. I am at my best when I'm with them. I feel my best, and I can be every bit of me that I am, and they love me for it. So when they're so far away, it's hard to feel like i'm completely myself - Especially since it's a little more difficult to make new friends at USI. People are really reluctant to, like, talk to you. Ever. Because I guess everyone kind of has their own thing already. Sigh...

Living In Your Letters
always assuming the worst
but you're going on nonetheless
and there's nothing to
cushion your heart
led fall

letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home
and there's something to
cushion my callous sighs

and I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes
in your eyes
your eyes

pouring over photographs
i'm living in your letters
breath deeply from this envelope
it smells like you
and I can't be
without That scent
it's filling me
with all you mean to me
to me

continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
and you won't let me sink
though I'm begging you
i'm begging you

phone calls from further away
and messages on my machine
but I don't ever tell you
this distance seems terrible

there's no need
to test my heart
with useless space
these roads go on forever
there'll always be a place
for you in my heart

so I'll hit the pavement
it's got to be better
than waiting
and pushing you far away
cause I'm scared
so I'll take my chances
and head on my way up there
cause turning to you
is like falling in love
when you're ten